So, NaNoWriMo is over for another year, and I have definitely failed to reach the target — I only made it to about 26,500 words, out of the intended 50,000. But I was partly following the NaNoWriMo site’s own advice — if the word count aspect is making you too stressed, it’s not serving its correct purpose, so ignore it.
I have still been thinking about my book, I am still planning to keep writing it — though I really appreciated the break over the first few days of December (life was pretty busy as well, so I had good reason to stop writing for a short while). I managed about 650 words yesterday — not too bad, after the break — and I’ve so far got about 250 today, and it’s only lunchtime.
I’m still plagued by doubt. I am horribly aware that, as first books go, I invented one that is complicated to write: very broad conceptually, with multiple large-scale settings and lots of secondary characters, and with a main issue that is only introduced in the background initially, so that the characters have other primary motivations for their early actions, and I have to weave that together with the gradual takeover of the background problem.
The core of the story is something that I feel strongly about, but am also ambivalent about — that’s one of the reasons why I wanted to write about it. But that doesn’t make it any easier to write a complex work straight off.
For the moment, I’m going to try and plough on, and see if I can get past the early, subtle parts to the up-front later parts. I spent quite a bit of time 2 days ago rethinking parts of the plan — so at some point, I’m going to go back and thoroughly re-work the initial chapter of one thread (yes, again — for about the 5th time), but I also rethought the chapter I was about to write, so for now I’m carrying on with that.
I’m working a little non-linearly, in that there’s gaps all over the early stuff I’ve written, which I’ll fill in later, but although I’ve got various ideas for scenes in the second half of the book, I haven’t got any idea what order they might go in, so I’d need to have more of a think about those sections before I tried writing them.
I can’t promise that I’ll be sticking with this book all the way through this round — because it might be more sensible to switch to one of my other major ideas, one with a simpler plot — but for now, I’ll keep going, and see how far I can get.